alone...

holy shit

2005-09-27T15:18:53Z

i doubt any1 will post but i remebered my password but not my username lol...well lets see updates...this summer was fucking awesome best time ever...doing the single life party thing getting drunk and having fun with the CREWS..i've met some cool ppl along the way but like they say "all good things must come to an end"..im in dade right now bored out of my mind and the only thing that entertains me is photoshop and imageready (if anybody wants me to do a pic let me know) lol just thought i would add that

imma be out i got class (anatomy) who knos when the next will be...peace

an_anomaly @ 2005-03-27T23:36:00

2005-03-28T04:40:56Z

"you can have friends and still have an empty void"

an_anomaly @ 2005-02-13T22:00:00

2005-02-14T03:06:46Z

when thers peace after the great war we still fight a war amongst ourselves and within ourselcves to truely find what people rarely find that small feeling of inner peace

looking back

2005-02-06T20:33:18Z

when ppl look back i want them to tell the story of how i lived not of how i died

what story will you tell?...

this is a song about me

2005-01-24T18:48:27Z

This song is dedicated - to all the happy people
All the happy people - who have real nice lives
And who have no idea what it's like, to be broke as fuck

[Verse One]
I feel like I'm walkin a tight rope, without a circus net
Poppin perkaset, I'm a nervous wreck
I deserve respect; but I work and sweat for this worthless check
I'm bout to burst this tech at somebody to reverse this debt
Minimum wage got my adrenaline caged
Full of venom and rage, 'specially when I'm engaged
and my daughter's down to her last diaper, it's got my ass hyper
I pray that God answers, maybe I'll ask nicer
Watchin ballers while they flossin in they Pathfinders
These overnight stars becomin autograph signers
We all long to blow up and leave the past behind us
Along with the small fry's and average half pinters
But playa haters turnin bitch like they have vaginas
Cause we see them dollar signs and let the cash blind us
Money'll brainwash you and leave yo' ass mindless
when snakes slither in the grass spineless

[Chorus: repeat 2X]
That's Rock Bottom - when this life makes you mad enough to kill
That's Rock Bottom - when you want somethin bad enough to steal
That's Rock Bottom - when you feel like you've had it up to here
Cause you mad enough to scream but you sad enough to tear

[Verse Two]
My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams
I'm hopin things look up; but there ain't no job openings
I feel discouraged, hungry and malnourished
Living in this house with no furnace, unfurnished
And I'm sick of workin dead end jobs with lame pay
And I'm tired of being hired and fired the same day
But fuck it, if you know the rules to the game play
Cause when we die we know we all going the same way
Cause it's cool to be player, but it sucks to be the fan
When all you need is bucks to be the man, plus a luxury sedan
I'm comfortable and roomy in a six
But they threw me in the mix with all these gloomy lunatics
who walk around depressed, and smoke a pound of sess a day
And yesterday went by so quick it seems like it was just today
My daughter wants to throw the ball but I'm too stressed to play
Live half my life and throw the rest away

[Chorus]

[Verse Three]
There's people that love me, and people that hate me
But it's the evil that made me this backstabbin deceitful and shady
I want the money, the women, the fortune and fame
if it means I end up burnin in hell scorchin in flames
if it means I'm stealin your checkbook and forgin your name
This lifetime bliss for eternal torture and pain
Cause right now, I feel like just hit the rock bottom
I got problems - now everybody on my blocks got 'em
I'm screamin like them two cops when Tupac shot 'em
Holdin two glocks, hope your doors got new locks on 'em
My daughter's feet ain't got no shoes or socks on 'em
And them rings you wearin look like they got a few rocks on 'em
And while you flauntin 'em I could be takin 'em to shops to pawn 'em
I got a couple of rings and a brand new watch, you want 'em?
Cause I ain't never went gold off one song
I'm runnin up on someone's lawn with guns drawn

NIGHTMARE

2005-01-20T05:45:16Z

as every may already kno im a fatass..lol..thats not it..January 14, 2005...going down bird road almost connecting to lejune i was heading to the BP so we can have some reguler fun when i lost control of my wakk car and i crashed into a sign missed a tree and ended up hitting a light pole and a parked car(yes i kno that part is funny)...but that was the worst moment in my life i could have cause the death of my homies(P, Jesse, and Justo) sometimes i wish i would have died so i wont have to be depressed about the whole situation but i was a big wake up call for all of us..GOD HAD A PURPOSE FOR US TO LIVE LONGER THATS Y WE LIVED for what purpose we dont know yet mayb its not our time mayb we still have to become the men we're supposed to be and are about to become..we're at the point in life where we can make it or break i choose to make it i refuse to become someone who could have been great but i refuse to do that I WILL B GREAT i will go further than anyones expectations of me i will show people who i really am...as to the purpose of y i am here im still trying to figure out i hope to find my answer soon as i take the journey of life a day at a time but mayb that'll end soon my mom fears i may have cought the same problem she had in her head..i've been having constant pulsing headaches ever since the accident..and worst of all it plays back like a movie over and over looping itself but i wont let this stop me from whatever im trying to accomplish

i leave now with these words said and done i'll update another day o and finally i would like to thank god for letting me live

survey

2004-11-14T22:26:06Z

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?

Remarkable

2004-10-16T22:01:15Z

" death has a remarkable ability to clarify our thinking about whats really important to us "

What a Night

2004-10-09T23:40:45Z

last night me and my dad threw a BDAY party for my moms 40TH...it was fucking raw..i basically played bartender and got every1 drunk..thats how we colombians do drink dance and have a good time later on my boi jorge came and i gave him a few drink but he left cause he had skool the next day...around 12 my dad suprised my mom with mariachis yeh my dad was pimpin that night..as the night progressed and more bottles opened i realized that i have to slow down my drinking but w.e it was mymoms BDAY so i drank for the right reasons..after a night of dancing salsa, merengue, bachata and etc.. we all saat down and told the stupidest jokes in spanish but we were all drunk and started laffing anyways..around 3:30 every1 left and the end of the night we killed 4 bottles of johnny walker red label, 4 bottles of absolut vodka, 2 bottles of appleton rum, 2 bottles of aguardiente, and one big bottle of wine...yeh we colombians to excesive drinking but its all good cause we kno how to have a good time

changes

2004-09-23T15:56:52Z

"she has made me realize many things, that i have to do many changes, but i can't do this change alone for the temptation is out ther and i am weak" - reyes

Fight Club

2004-09-16T10:02:23Z

i got into a fight last night it was fucking awesome...usually i dont fight but i was mad the whole day about a dream that i had no details on here...so when i saw and herd a kid that i never liked call me a pussy i didnt care so i told him to tell it in my face and he did..so the effect was i right hooked him in his temple and we started from ther..i won which was cool but it got to the point that the managers had to pull us apart(from m job)..iight bitches im out i gotta finish drinking my coffee and go to skool..PEACE

mood

2004-09-07T02:07:25Z

adding to my icon jusy my mood....depressed....my body is destroying itself

icon

2004-09-07T01:42:50Z

yes for those of you wondering for my icon..those r my real eyes i was born with my left eye with green and brown and the right just green

wakk ass weekend

2004-09-06T04:50:40Z

this weekend sucked ASS....i was sober the whole weekend(except saturday) plus they made me work friday but only till 5 later that night i didnt do shit except tlk to LIZ till 3 in the morning :-)...saturday was boring as fuck i basically stayed in my shorts the whole day and ate shit in my house until the night i took 2 percasets since my shoulder is fucked up and i played the dice drinking game with my dad and beat him by 3 shots i was fucking wasted....and 2day i went to work from 12 to 5 and came ome in the hope to get drunk later at night but obviously it didnt happen cause im writing here and this kid went to some grls house...I SHOULD B DRUNK RIGHT NOW...yes for those ppl wondering i do have a drinking problem so dont tell me nothing new...iight bitches imma b out tlk to ppl online

benitez rawks

LIZ rawks

update

2004-08-31T02:43:51Z

wsp NUCCAS just updating this shit...i been doing alot..going clubbin @ space, envy, and life...i've met some cool as chiks who ROCK THE FUCK ON...and i like one special grl...so yeah basically starting on my bday May 20th and every weekend after ive been drinking every weekend.. YES i kno i have a drinking problem you dont have to tell me...i've also started college and im going to study radiology and get pizzaid...lol...iight im out i'll update some other time

an_anomaly @ 2004-04-11T10:36:00

2004-04-12T02:35:32Z

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle." - Plato

an_anomaly @ 2004-04-11T10:31:00

2004-04-12T02:29:50Z

"Iron rusts from disuse; water loses its purity from stagnation.....even so does inaction sap the vigor of the mind." - Leonardo da Vinci

an_anomaly @ 2004-04-02T23:05:00

2004-04-03T04:03:49Z

Be of good cheer about death and know this as a truth, that no evil can happen to a good man, either in life or after death.
--Socrates